Saturday, September 19, 2009

"The Covenant"


I wrote the following devotion for the end of Samuel/Kings/Chronicles class at The Master's Seminary. We were in 1 Samuel 16-31. I find this text warmly encouraging and convicting. I hope you do as well.


To God be the Glory!


THE COVENANT

Dr. Greg Harris

The Master’s Seminary

Copyright 2009


After David defeated the Philistine giant Goliath (1 Sam. 17), the soul of King Saul’s son Jonathan “was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as himself” (1 Sam. 18:1). The same context states, “Then Jonathan made a covenant with David because he loved him as himself. And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, with his armor, including his sword and his bow and his belt” (1 Sam. 18:3-4).

When the fearful king found out that his own son had made a covenant with one that Saul himself considered an enemy who must be destroyed, then “Saul’s anger burned against Jonathan and he said to him, ‘You son of a perverse, rebellious woman! Do I not know that you are choosing the son of Jesse to your own shame and to the shame of your mother’s nakedness? For as long as the son of Jesse lives on the earth, neither you nor your kingdom will be established. Therefore now, send and bring him to me, for he must surely die’” (1 Sam. 20:30-31).

What a fool, thought Saul, as all the Sauls of this world continue to think. You must fight, dig, and grab for all that is yours. The utter folly of freely and willingly handing over what you possess to another always creates a nauseating repulsion in the pits of their stomachs because such a release is so alien to the Sauls of this world. “Fool! Look at what you have! Look at what you could have! The entire world lies before you ready to be enjoyed to its fullest! Fools—utter fools! To humble yourself before one who some say will one day rule over Israel. A shepherd from Bethlehem? King over all Israel? Utter folly.”

Jonathan did not reason as his hard-hearted father did. He knew—no, make that, Jonathan accepted this as God’s ordained decree; acceptance is much stronger that a simple belief that can waver. Jonathan knew that David would be king over Israel. He also knew by faith that whatever he gave up he would receive back one hundredfold, added with the unspeakable presence of his beloved friend, and with the holy blessing of God Himself.

Jonathan’s total acceptance of God’s decree repeatedly shows in his actions. Instead of bringing about David’s death, and after multiple attempts at convincing his father the king that David was no true enemy (even to Jonathan’s own peril), Jonathan went to bring the heartbreaking news to the exiled David that all was not well: it was not safe for David to return to the King Saul’s court. Yet even in the midst of his own grief at what would amount to the loss of ongoing fellowship with beloved friend, even how he brought the news to David bears witness that he looked out for his heart-friend brother: “And Jonathan, Saul’s son, arose and went to David at Horesh, and encouraged him in God. Thus he said to him, ‘Do not be afraid, because the hand of Saul my father shall not find you, and you will be king over Israel and I will be next to you; and Saul my father knows that also.” So the two of them made a covenant before the LORD; and David stayed at Horesh while Jonathan went to his house (1 Sam. 23:16-18). Both friends departed deeply saddened that day. They both had to accept by faith in God’s Word that this once-rejected king would ultimately one day reign over what was rightfully his.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if all the Jonathans of this world were blessed with having a friend like David, and all the David’s of this world had a friend like Jonathan? Would it not be blissful to enter into a covenant of love relationship with so deep a friend, and to enjoy your friend’s presence as well as the holy blessing of God?

In fact, we whom the Lord redeemed already have this—and much, much more.

We who are saved (especially in this context Gentiles) have had our status eternally changed because God saw fit to enter into a covenant relation with us: “remember that you were at that time separate from Christ, excluded from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers to the covenants of promise, having no hope and without God in the world. But now in Christ Jesus you who formerly were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ” (Eph. 2:12-13). No longer separated; no longer excluded; no longer strangers to the covenants of promise to those who are in Christ.

However, as good as any manmade covenant can be (such as the one Jonathan and David made), the covenants of God are always better because of our own sinful frailties and because of His own perfection. Accordingly, “Jesus has become the guarantee of a better covenant” (Heb. 7:22) for those who love Him and have entered into a covenant relationship with Him.

God not only gives His beloved a better covenant with a better guarantee in Christ Jesus, but also He gives rich promises of His future reward that He will one day give. To the faithful church in Philadelphia (and all other spiritually similar who love the Lord and have not gone home to be with Him yet), Jesus exhorts: “Nevertheless what you have, hold fast until I come. And he who overcomes, and he who keeps My deeds until the end, to him I will give authority over the nations; and he shall rule them with a rod of iron, as the vessels of the potter are broken to pieces, as I also have received authority from My Father; and I will give him the morning star. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.’ (Rev. 2:25-29).

In the last promise given to the overcomers in Revelation 2-3, Jesus Himself promises, “He who overcomes, I will grant to him to sit down with Me on My throne, as I also overcame and sat down with My Father on His throne” (Rev. 3:21). If we had written these verses on our own accord, they would be blasphemy. The fact that Jesus makes these promises to us is sheer grace upon grace. His victory, His reward, He freely shares with those in Christ.

“I know you will be king over Israel (and all else), and I will be next to you.”

However, whoever enters into this covenant costs both parties dearly. It cost Jesus—and it costs us: “For I received from the Lord that which I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus in the night in which He was betrayed took bread; and when He had given thanks, He broke it, and said, ‘This is My body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of Me.’ In the same way He took the cup also, after supper, saying, ‘This cup is the new covenant in My blood; do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of Me.’ For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until He comes. Therefore whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner, shall be guilty of the body and the blood of the Lord. But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of the bread and drink of the cup” (1 Cor. 11:23-28). The self-examination of our own sins—and sinfulness—is a lifetime process and the least favorite part of the covenant for many believers. However, it is foundational to those who walk with the Holy King who also shepherds us into conformity with His image as we walk with him (Rom. 8:29; 12:1-2).

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for entering into a covenant relationship with me, one much stronger than the Mosaic Covenant, with a much deeper love than David and Jonathan had.

Please take my robe—the outer visible source of how people perceive me; a symbol of my physical status. Clothe me instead with your righteousness, grace and humility (Rev. 3:5; 1 Pet. 5:5).

Please take my armor—I expose my utter frailty—and utter sinfulness—as I give it to you. I do not do this naturally, Lord. As You so fully know, this goes against my nature. Undergird me, dear Heavenly Father, and help me do this. Teach me to look to You as my shield and refuge. “As for God, His way is blameless; the word of the LORD is tried; He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him (Ps. 18:30). “You have also given me the shield of Your salvation, and Your right hand upholds me; and Your gentleness makes me great” (Ps. 18:35). “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart exults, and with my song I shall thank Him (Psa. 28:7).

“Our soul waits for the LORD; He is our help and our shield” (Psa. 33:20).

Please take my sword and my bow—my perceived source of strength and hope for physical deliverance, I hand over to You. Teach me to know firsthand the power of God that is foolishness to the world (1 Cor. 1:24-25), and the freefall faith that knows “He raises the poor from the dust, He lifts the needy from the ash heap to make them sit with nobles, and inherit a seat of honor; for the pillars of the earth are the LORD’s, and He set the world on them. He keeps the feet of His godly ones, but the wicked ones are silenced in darkness; for not by might shall a man prevail” (1 Sam. 2:8-9). Teach me to know firsthand that “the LORD is not restrained to save by many or by few” (1 Sam. 14:6).

Cultivate in me the spiritual warrior’s mindset to see that my many weaknesses give you opportunity for You to show Your strength. When others come at me with a sword, a spear, and a javelin—or a mouth—help me to stand in the name of the LORD of Hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, for you, LORD, do not deliver by sword or by spear, for the battle is the LORD’s (1 Sam. 17:45, 47). Train me in “the word of truth, in the power of God; by the weapons of righteousness for the right hand and the left” (2 Cor. 6:7).

Please take my belt—a source of security for me that holds everything together. Instead help me to appropriate the armor You have given me, having girded my loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod my feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which I will be able to extinguish all the flaming missiles of the evil one. Help me to take up and implement “the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God” (Eph. 6:14-17). Teach me to pray as well as the tremendous value—and privilege—of prayer (Eph. 6:18).

And please, Lord, once I have fully given these to you, please teach me how not to come looking for them again. Please keep me from seeking counterfeit replacements from the enemy, the world, and from within myself, for I know by experience that I am greatly biased toward doing so.

O Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end (Rev. 22:13), the root and the offspring of David, the bright morning star” (Rev. 22:16), the Spirit and the bride are saying, “Come!” And let the one who hears say, Come!” (Rev. 22:17).

Amen. Come, Lord Jesus (Rev. 22:10), for I know You will be King, and I will be next to you (1 Sam. 23:17; Rev. 2:25-28; 3:21).


Wednesday, September 2, 2009

The Darkness and the Glory Study Guide to Be Published


We experienced a lot of snags and difficulties with The Darkness and the Glory Study Guide. By God's grace, it is scheduled to come out around November.

As before, we will keep you posted once we know something more definitive.

God bless.

The Stone and the Glory To Be Published/Free Audio Chapel Message Download of One Chapter


The Stone and the Glory is set to be published somewhere around the end of 2009 to early 2010. We will keep you posted the closer it gets to publication.

I spoke in chapel at The Master's Seminary on Sept. 1, 2009 and used a chapter from it ("The Lesson--Part 1" as the base of study for the chapel message.

For those who would like to hear it you can find it under the "Media Resources" on my faculty page at The Masters Seminary. It you point to "The Lesson--Part 1," it will let you either play or download it.

Hope this ministers to people.

To God be the Glory.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Grace Upon Grace Reflections


I generally keep a file of special letters and emails that I have received from different people about the books that are "sweet remembrances." I try not to wave them around; it would not be appropriate.

Every now and then I receive one that I think is so powerful in its witness, that it would help others. I received the following email a few weeks ago and have received permission from the author to share it with you.

To God Be the Glory!

Dr. Harris,

Around this time last year you spoke on the subject of suffering at my husband's (fiancee, at the time) Bible study. There was also a time of Q&A that you and Betsy were kind enough to do after. I was so deeply moved and encouraged by your testimonies that I wanted to "read on." Your book, The Cup and the Glory, was available for those interested in purchasing it. You graciously gave me a free copy after learning I had no money on me and I wanted to thank you again for that.

Planning a wedding and working overtime gave me little to no free time to read the book, so I temporarily put it aside until the appropriate time. Lonngren and I were married early January and by early March we learned we were five weeks pregnant with twins. We were ecstatic and started preparing prayerfully for them (e.g. that they would be saved at an early age, wisdom in raising them, etc).

At this point I was a full-time homemaker and finally had time to read and study The Cup and the Glory. I took my time digesting it, one page at a time. As I read through the first chapters your account of the loss of your twins came back to me. Only this time I was tuning in more, now that I was having twins. I must have read and re-read the story several times. I could not believe the magnitude of the trial, but was even more amazed that God had given you and Betsy such strength during a very painful time. I also could not help to put myself in that situation thinking that I would be absolutely devastated! Lord, would I be able to drink the cup? I wanted to be able to but, could I take it in really small doses Lord? God was working on my heart.

This spurred Lonngren and I to be praying more diligently for the Lord's will and our obedience to it. This was especially true since my first trimester was a rocky one with many false alarms. We were constantly reminded that the Lord gives and the Lord takes, and that the twins belong to God and we were only temporary caregivers. Reading your book also inspired me to do an in-depth study of First Peter, which I have had the opportunity to do. How rich it is!

This last week, my 17th week of pregnancy, I was on the last chapter of your book. While I was reading the final pages on God's glory, I put the book down to take a small break. As I stood up my water broke. I was in shock and could only cry out to my Father. Lonngren and I rushed to the hospital. Lord, please don't take our babies, I don't know if I could handle it, I would be devastated, please please don't take them! The Lord took our babies to be with Him on June 5. But before He did, at our amazement, he gave us the peace which surpasses all understanding. God poured out His grace on us that we were able to respond by submitting to His will and giving Him the glory that our twins were safely home. They are getting the royal treatment by standing in the presence of our Lord. Why would I selfishly want anything less for them by wanting them back with us on this sin-cursed earth? In a sense God had answered our prayer we had consistently prayed about saving them at a young age. He actually did better; He took them before they got to experience sin. What a privilege and blessing! Lonngren and I desparetly look forward to eternity where we will get to see them again.

So I wanted to thank you Dr. Harris and to let you know that the small gift you gave me went a long way. Apart from the deep comfort His Word brought me, the Lord knew of another book that would minister to my heart in the midst of a difficult time. I now have a greater appreciation for and understanding of the perfecting, confirming, strengthening and establishing that He is doing in me as part of His grand plan. Blessed be His name!

For His glory,
Anna Taljaard


Friday, June 26, 2009

Updated Website for The Darkness and the Glory


We have updated the website for The Darkness and the Glory. It now includes a three part interview I did for the 2009 Shepherd's Conference.

We have also added the first two chapters of the book as a free download.

The study guide for The Darkness and the Glory should be out in mid-August, if all goes well.

To see the upgrades, click here.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The Shepherds' Fellowship Facebook John MacArthur link

For those doing Facebook (I currently do not because I am involved in writing and other matters), they posted The Darkness and the Glory video recommendation by John MacArthur.



Friday, June 12, 2009

"The Cup and the Glory" Spanish Edition


The Cup and the Glory
and the study guide will soon be released in Spanish.

For those interested in downloading the first two chapters of La copa y la gloria, click here.

It will be a few weeks before the study guide is ready. We will also post as well a free download section as well.

We do not have an exact release date from the publisher yet of when the books will be ready to order, but we will release the date and the links for these as soon as we have them.

Hope this will bear much fruit.

To God be the Glory,

Greg Harris

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Darkness and the Glory Book of the Month


For those interested, The Darkness and the Glory is book of the month at Grace Community Church for May, 2009. 

Monday, April 6, 2009

John MacArthur on The Darkness and the Glory


John MacArthur so graciously recorded a video endorsement of The Darkness and the Glory

For those interested, click here

More later. 

To God be the Glory 

Monday, March 2, 2009

Three Year Anniversary of the Publication of The Cup and the Glory


Today, March 2, 2009, is the 3-year anniversary of the publication of The Cup and the Glory. So much has happened in these three years: translations, webpage, Libronix/LOGOS, Shepherd's Conference--and on it goes. An incredible three years, blessed by the Lord with much fruit.

I have been so busy getting The Darkness and the Glory out along with the soon-to-be-released study guide, and doing the final editing of The Stone and the Glory, that I had not been in any portion of The Cup and the Glory for a couple of years. After I finished my work this morning, I went back and read "The Wilderness" and most of "The Cup." It was like being with old friends. I also went to the study guide and read "The Writing of The Cup and the Glory." Even though I had written these, I had forgotten a lot of the details about each chapter. I also went back and read the interview with my wife Betsy (that is in the study guide). In many ways it seems like 10 years or more since these were published.

All-in-all it was just a time of thankfulness and praise; kind of a quick look back at the 3-year marker. Hopefully God will continue to bless and bring the divine appointments that He would have. 

To God be the Glory!


Monday, February 16, 2009

Church of the Canyons College Retreat


My wife and I just returned from a most blessed retreat with a great college group from The Church of the Canyons in Canyon Country, California, under the most able and wise leadership of Jason and Steph Beals. We studied chapters from first part of The Darkness and the Glory. I had hesitated in doing this study for the retreat because I know this is "meat not milk,"and I was not sure how it would go. But I found them to be a spiritually mature group, most of whom hunger for the Word of God, so God indeed blessed His Word going forth. Elijah Vogel had even written an excellent Glory of God song based on material from the book. We hope to have it available on the website before long.

Along with what was mentioned in the previous paragraph, part of my hesitation with this topic for the retreat was that this was my first group where we did Glory of God sessions based on the book since it had been published. It is one thing to teach the material to people who do not have The Darkness and the Glory; it is another thing to attempt to teach others on matters related to the book when do have it. (Each member at the retreat received a copy).

So I came to the retreat not so much as a teacher but a learner. I prayed and still pray that God will teach me how to teach others the material He would have me do. It is a lifetime study and a lifetime prayer. The questions the students asked me and the interaction I had with them was superb. As mentioned in "The Writing of The Darkness and the Glory," I have had so few people so far to interact with about material in the book since it was only published in December of 2008. The college group sparked so many additional trails in Scripture that I want to track down and investigate. I kept coming up with additional chapters in my head that I could write as I interacted with them. Coming up with additional chapters was not my intent, it was just a blessed by-product our their stimulating comments and questions.

May God bless His Word going forth and may it be multiplied many times over. 

To God be the Glory. 


Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Writing of The Darkness and the Glory (Part 3)



March 24-28, 2005 Precepts Ministry International in Straubing, Germany.


In the Fall Semester of 2003, we gathered at the airport for my third Greece-Turkey study tour. The registrar for SEBTS, Sheldon Alexander, was at the airport dropping someone off for the trip. Although officially I was “seminary faculty,” I was assigned to the college (which I thoroughly enjoyed). Sheldon said, “Greg, we want you to teach the Book of Revelation at the seminary in the Spring Semester (2004).” I had taught other classes at the seminary, so it was not so unusual to do so, but with this request I really didn’t want to do this. The Book of Revelation is not the place to begin studying the Bible, which would be true for many in that class, but Sheldon was insistent that this was the class the school wanted, so I did not resist it.


So in the spring of 2004, we had a night class on the Book of Revelation. A few weeks into the class, a young man came up and introduced himself to me. His name was Philipp Meineke. At the time I knew nothing about him at all. I later found out he was from Germany, as was his mother, Gisela Meineke, who still lived there and helps with Precepts Ministry International. Phillip had sent his mother a pre-published copy of The Cup and the Glory, and she read it. So it was somehow determined that they should do a Bible conference in Germany, and that I would be invited to be the speaker. My daughter Lauren, who was 17 at that time, went with me as a most helpful assistant.


By God’s sovereign design, they scheduled this Bible conference for the week of Easter. It was a killer schedule (from a speaker’s perspective), beginning on the Thursday night and would finish on Monday morning with lots of sessions packed in. Since it was during Easter and beginning on the Thursday night before the cross, I did basically contents for the entire book. (Of course, when I speak before a group, I have to condense it and leave out much of what is written). But this assembly in Germany was the first group that I ever went through The Darkness and the Glory in its entirety. I told the primarily German group about the church in America and how I had left them hanging (and where I had left them), and they enjoyed a very hearty communal laugh.


It was a relatively small group for what one would consider a Bible conference, but numbers in and of themselves are not a good gauge for how God works. So many multiplied and continued blessings emerged from that conference. One of them was meeting my translator, Dr. Georg Huber. I left the conference with a new lifetime friend. He is a wonderful, humble, and extremely gifted servant of God. Ironically, Gisela Meineke, who had been so instrumental in putting together the Bible Conference missed it, because at the same time, her son Phillip was getting married in America. She made it in time for a few minutes of the final session.


Not only was this the first time that I had taught the material from The Darkness and the Glory from cover to cover, it was also one of the most discouraged groups as we started our studies. To this day I have never seen a group so low when we began our study that became one of the most joyful and worshipful ones once we got to the glory. Of course, I had no idea about how the conference was going until it was almost over. I knew that many of the ones who attended were isolated as Christians and some had no Christians they knew of within a 100-mile radius. Many came from virtually dead churches. It was easy to discern the discouragement and for some an almost like “why even bother” mentality. I hoped and thought the sessions were going well, but I wasn’t totally sure. Sometimes we would finish one, and they would just stare at me; not a word was spoken. A few times I thought, “Boy, they do not like this.” I found out later at the sharing time at the end of the conference that it was abject silence before God for many of them. One man I remember said (and with no theatrics): “It was all I could do to keep getting off my chair and falling on my face to worship God in the midst of the sessions.” I have had many times like that in my own studies, so I knew exactly of what he spoke. There were many such reports. God blessed His Word going forth that conference. It greatly made an impression on me, and to this day remains one of my all time favorite and “blessed remembrance” conferences.


In March 2006 The Cup and the Glory was published. In July 2006 we left our home in North Carolina and moved to the LA area. I began teaching at The Master’s Seminary in August 2006. The spring semester 2007 I taught my first prayer class and used the book as one of the textbooks for the class. In September 2007 John MacArthur read the first four chapters of The Darkness and the Glory. As noted, very few people had read this book, so I was most interested in John MacArthur’s in-put. In a very long story, he was wonderfully encouraging about the book. At this time the book was not yet scheduled to be published, but at least I considered it affirmation from God about how it was received.


Placerita Baptist Church, in Santa Clarita, CA, adjacent to The Master’s College, had been a church I had spoken at twice in the previous summer. It is one of my favorite places to go speak. In late November I received a call that informed me that their pastor Scott Ardavanis had become sick, and they asked if I could come and speak on Sunday, December 2, 2007. They asked me to do three sessions for the morning services (each one the same) and wanted the message to lead into the Lord’s Table. So in my allotted time, I did the core material from “His Cup—The Beginning.” It was the first time I had ever done that with a group, and it was wonderfully received by many who began to consider what was it that Jesus alone was able to do that we could not do. Doing this chapter followed by the Lord’s Table was always something I had wanted to do, especially at the beginning of the Christmas season. The church did not know at the time that this was a new chapter of a book and that they were the first people I had did it with. I took it as a blessed affirmation from the Lord of which this church knew nothing about at the time.


On May 20, 2008 I officially receive word that The Darkness and the Glory will be published in the fall. As far as I was concerned, “it wasn’t official until it was official” (that is, I had laid the book on the altar before God; our “amen” is in Him.) I had run ahead of God so many times in the past and was disappointed, I was finally learning (???) to wait on Him. The publisher, Rick Kress, wrote the following rather nonchalant email: “Greg, I can’t remember if I’ve gotten back to you or not. Kress would like to go ahead with the publication of “The Darkness and the Glory,” if you’re still up for it.”


The timing was right and perfect—as all of God’s timings truly are. The new chapter had been added, and now it was a different book than when it first came into being over ten years ago.


The Writing of The Darkness and the Glory (Part 2)


So many differences exist between the writing of The Cup and the Glory and The Darkness and the Glory. One of the biggest differences was that I had already gone through the process of writing a book, so I had a much better idea of what I was doing. Another difference, as many of you know, The Cup and the Glory never started out to be a book; it turned into a book as I was completing it. However, I knew The Darkness and the Glory was a book before I wrote the first word, which to me anyway, makes it a “better book” in the sense of its flow and organization, plus we all learn more as we study—myself included.


By the time The Cup and the Glory came into print, I had interacted with thousands of people over a ten-year period from places where I spoke, emails, and other various means. This was the introductory study that I did with many groups and mission conferences. Since this was the place where I started my study on the Glory of God, I reasoned it was (and still is) a good place for others who want to study the Glory of God should start as well.


With The Darkness and the Glory, I did some sessions at a church in Wilmington, NC, but very few people read the entire book. After all, if publishers would not publish The Cup and the Glory, I reasoned that they would not want to do the second book (although I did submit it to a few publishers). Unlike The Cup and the Glory, where I gave it to people, “charged” them prayer, and told them to send it to someone they thought needed it (that was one way I heard from so many people who read it), other than using portions from it at a few appropriate places in my classes, for the most part The Darkness and the Glory sat in my office for about 10-11 years (although I had a lot of requests from students to read it who knew the book existed). John MacArthur was only about the twentieth person to read the book, reading it in later 2007-early 2008.By the way, in a much too long story, John MacArthur spoke in chapel at SEBTS on September 2-4, 2003. I was his chauffer to the airport on Thursday of that week. That is how I met him and first talked with him (other than shaking hands with him in a long receiving line many years previous to this).


I was on a sabbatical from Southeastern for the Spring Semester of 2005. I had a great deal of things I wanted to study and a couple of speaking engagements already planned. On February 25-27, 2005 I was asked to do four sessions on the material in the first few chapters of The Darkness and the Glory at The Master’s Church, in Burlington, N.C. with friends of mine, Pastor Rob Thurman and his wife Ashley. Before we began the sessions, I told the church that I would have to leave them hanging (because of the number of sessions they had asked me to do; I knew where we would end). The group said that was fine with them, but I really left them hanging, as we ended where chapter two “The View” concludes with “God the Father approaching God the Son.” Some of the people in the group even followed me to my car to ask me follow up questions as I was leaving.


It was during this weekend in Burlington, NC that Dr. Dick Mayhue from The Master’s Seminary had left a voice message on my answering machine. I returned his call on Saturday, and we set up a phone appointment for Monday. On February 28, 2005 Dick Mayhue extends an invitation from John MacArthur to me to be on faculty at The Master’s Seminary. My life became very complicated all of sudden. All my plans I had for my sabbatical abruptly changed. I really had not expected the invitation to be on faculty at The Master’s Seminary to ever come about (a very long story), so I was overwhelmingly stunned when they offered me the position; it is one of the highest honors and privileges of my life to be even asked to be a part of that faculty. I was so overwhelmed by this abrupt change in plans and pending decision that I could not concentrate on my other studies. I had my first extended sessions on The Darkness and the Glory coming up in about a month, and I could not concentrate on my much-needed preparation because of the burden of my wife and me wrestling through all that was involved in leaving where we lived in the small town of Wake Forest, NC and moving all the way across the United States to the Los Angeles, CA area.


The Writing of The Darkness and the Glory (Part 1)


The Cup and the Glory was written in October–December 1996 but was not published until ten years later with me receiving my first copy on March 2, 2006. In May of 1997, I began teaching at Southeastern Baptist Theological Seminary in Wake Forest, North Carolina and taught primarily at the College located on the same campus. It was during this time in May-June 1997 that I wrestled for weeks with the “two questions” found in the wager: why did Satan change his tactics from Matthew 16:22-23 (“Don’t go to the cross”) and Luke 22:3 (“Come to the cross”), and why was there darkness over the land when Jesus died? I am not exactly sure the number of weeks that I struggled with this because I did not note when I first began thinking it through. At the time I had no idea how important these questions would become.

Trying to solve this apparent contradiction consumed me almost every waking moment, the thoughts never completely leaving my mind. I would wake up; the questions were before me. I would watch TV with my family; the questions were before me. While waiting in the doctor’s office, they would still be with me. I was able to exercise now from the rheumatoid arthritis and had actually been able (much to my amazement and those around me) to start running again. One day I was so consumed with these two questions that I went on a run and sort of lost track of where I was because of the intense concentration. It took me a few minutes to figure out where I was and how to get back home.

I cannot remember the exact date, but in June 1997, on some Sunday morning at the church we attended, I don’t know the proper term to describe this, but “It finally dawned on me” is far too mild. I was sitting beside Betsy in church a few minutes before the service started. When I knew the answer, I inadvertently gasped out loud a couple of times, sort of like someone hyperventilating. Betsy looked at me to see if I was having a heart attack. I assured her I was fine, but she did not have any idea with what I had been wrestling through for these past few weeks.

In July 1997 I taught a summer school class on Samuel/Kings/Chronicles at the College at Southeastern, where I would officially become a faculty member a few weeks later in the fall. That class at SEBTS was by far the hardest class I ever taught in summer school because of the sheer volume of material within these books; we tried to cover 167 Bible chapters in three weeks. In that class was a slender, ex-military looking, single man, Kevin McAteer, who went on to graduate from both the College and The Master’s Seminary (years before I went as a faculty member). Over the years Kevin became a husband and father, and later a pastor, a trusted friend, and an extremely talented editor (I had no idea he was so superbly gifted for this until after The Cup and the Glory was already printed, or I would have used him as an editor for that book as well).

On the last weekend in July 1997, I drove my family to the final week of the work in Charlotte that I had done for a year with Mike and Brenda Sprott. (You can read more about this in “The Writing of The Cup and the Glory” in the study guide for that book). While on that trip Betsy and I took the kids to Tweetsie Railroad, an amusement park in the mountains of North Carolina, for a one-day vacation. Betsy read to me some as I drove to and from the trip out of the Old Testament books we were studying in class. It was actually a bad time to take the trip since we were in the middle of a very heavy load in the summer school class, but we had to say goodbye to our friends in Charlotte, and we thought that since we were fairly close to Tweetsie Railroad, that we would like for the kids to enjoy this.So in the midst of an exhaustive summer school class, with a three-hour trip to Charlotte and then another 2-3 hour drive to the amusement park, weeks away from beginning a faculty position at a new school, training a new Sheltie puppy named Cowboy, the doctor’s dissertation at Dallas Theological Seminary was not yet complete . . .

. . . since I had nothing better to do, I wrote the first four chapters of The Darkness and the Glory during this time. Of course, the four chapters would be tweaked and edited over the years, but I wrote basically the core (or “sketchpad”) for chapters 1-4 during this time. (The sketchpad consists of the framework of the book. In other words I know what I am going to write, the order of it, etc. It is sort of like a rough draft). It was another one of those periods where I could not sleep. I don’t exactly know how to describe it. I had every reason to be exhausted and yet I was fully awake—both mentally and physically. It reminded me of when I had written The Cup and the Glory the year before, so I did not fight this unexpected burst of writing. Looking back on this now over the years, I think God picked the absolute most impractical time for me—the absurdly worse time—to write these chapters so that when it eventually became a book and then later was published, I would know who got the glory. It made absolutely no sense on a human level to write it during this time, but that is when the book began.

From August-December 1997 I finished writing the sketchpad for the remainder of The Darkness and the Glory. During this time I also finished writing the dissertation and completed the Th.D. program at Dallas Theological Seminary in late November 1997, during my first semester at SEBTS. The last part of the sketchpad is writing and editing the chapters in an attempt to communicate accurately and hopefully in a readable fashion what I had learned in my Glory of God studies. But basically from 1997-2005, other than a few uses of small portions of the material at different times in the classroom or the pulpit, virtually nothing happened with the book as The Darkness and the Glory sat on a shelf in my home office for eight years.


Friday, January 30, 2009

Well, Here I Sit


As many of you know, The Cup and the Glory existed for years and was passed around to about seventy countries before it was ever published. The writing of the book coincided with the advent of the Web and email, so it never would have been that widespread without the new technology tools. As many who have read the book know my "price" for distributing the book was prayer for me, and that they would send it on to someone they think needed it.

Since I also used the material at certain classes I taught at seminary and at various mission conferences and churches, and since I would receive letters and emails from many who ended up with it, I had either verbally or in written form communicated with thousands before and after the book was published. Every chapter ended up being many people's favorite chapter, and a lot of this was due to the circumstances in their lives. The numerous interactions gave me such a substantial base of comparison as I listened to people tell me things, and they would have no idea of previous conversations I had had with others. It made me much better at this because of this wealth of interaction.

I wrote this just to show the vast difference in interaction with others at the present time with The Darkness and the Glory, which was released on December 1, 2008. I had no idea how striking the very limited interaction about the new book would be to me. Of course, this will change over time, but it is something that greatly surprised me. John MacArthur was about the 20th person to read The Darkness and the Glory

The Darkness and the Glory is one of the Shepherd Conference of Grace Community Church "give away books." I am supposed to do an interview this Thursday about the book. I am praying that God will bring things to mind that He wants because I do not thoroughly know this book yet like I do The Cup and the Glory. I know that may sound strange in that I did write the book, but it is not the same as the process for the first book. I don't know a quick way to prepare for the interview. Again, hopefully once I am into it, God will stir my remembrance.

I am doing a monthly study on The Darkness and the Glory with a blessed group of secretaries from Grace Community Church. It is my first group study since the book was published. We had previously studied The Cup and the Glory together, so they very familiar with the format. It has been most interesting to watch them as they study and to interact with them. They are up to the end of chapter four, "The Separation." With The Cup and the Glory, many of them had life experiences of their own cup and hardships. With The Darkness and the Glory, which deals with the cup that Jesus alone had to drink because no one else could, it has been a lot less vocal as a reverential awe and worship of what Jesus endured for us permeated our last session. There were still comments, of course, but when we look at what He endured, we see how far removed we are from Him, and often there are no words fit to express this. This is fitting and is as God intends and is at the heart of true worship. 

I will keep you posted as I hear from people as sit on the sideline watch with interest how people respond to this book.

Grace and peace. 


Thursday, January 29, 2009

Late January reflections (Bitter Sweet)


Well, I guess it is time I updated the blog. Looks as though I have already blow my New Year's resolution on this one. Not at an excuse, but it really has been a whirlwind of activities: new book published, editing the third one, the start of the semester, beginning a teaching pastor position at a new church (more about all these later).

I always date when the books come out by when I first receive them. In this case, The Darkness and the Glory arrived to me on December 2, 2008. I was in the mountains of Georgia speaking at a church and had to wait until I got home to see them.

While in Georgia in late November, I received word the following from my wife Betsy and wrote the following email to those involved in the non-profit ministry:

Good morning, Beloved

After about a 10-year "wait until the time is right with God," The Darkness and the Glory will be shipped from the printers. It has already borne fruit, and for that I am extremely thankful and rejoicing in the Lord.

I found out yesterday that Bill Merrill, the lawyer for The Master's Seminary and College, fell over dead from a heart attack. He was in his forties; he left behind a wife and two teenage children. It has left me rejoicing for the above paragraph and "kicked in the stomach" stunned at the same time.

Indeed our days are numbered before the Lord, and Bill going home to be with God is no mistake, but we still grieve our losses until we are all home with the Lord. 

I will miss him and our deepening friendship, and I will very much miss his expertise in being the brain trust behind the non-profit.

God bless you all.

Greg

Well, that should be enough for the time being.

More about The Darkness and the Glory soon.